Wednesday, August 5, 2009


I am really struggling with something, as of late...

I would love to begin attending a real church with my family. I know that when even 2 people come together and discuss the Lord, that should be considered gathering in worship. But, I would love for the kids to attend Sunday school. I would love to sing in the choir. I would just love the feeling of having a church "family". But, because of Tallen, I am afraid to go.

I have the normal worries of him maybe disrupting the service, especially when there is singing etc..., as that is an assualt on his ears. But that isn't even my biggest worry, I stopped giving much regard to what people think ages ago. My worry is that it will scare Tallen. He takes everything so literally. I remember being about four years old and a guest preacher at our church put on a real "Hell fire and brim stone" sermon, screaming to the congregation that Jesus was coming to take us all home. I had nightmares for weeks because the last thing I wanted was for anyone to come take me away from my home.

I know that Tallen will internalize everything that he hears at church and will probably be scared silly. Like when someone told him he sure was growing up and he stressed for weeks, thinking he was growing too big for the house etc... I just don't know what to do...


sarasophia said...

Oh bless your heart--I wish you lived near enough to come to our church...we don't do "fire and brimstone". Our pastor is a teacher and it is so lovely to actually LEARN something each Sunday.

We don't do fancy Sunday clothing and it is just a relaxed family atmosphere.

I feel so blessed to take my little ones there...I wouldn't like them confused with yelling and screaching either. And honestly I don't think that's the Lord's plan for us.
Especially not the little I think it hinders their belief. God doesn't want us to come to Him out of fear--but love.

<3 sarasophia

Dan River Mama said...

sarasophia, your church sounds great! I wish we lived close enough to visit it one Sunday.